I think that it’s important to sometimes look back at our lives, and maintain perspective of where we are now. In life, we go through different seasons. Like Ecclesiastes says,
“a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,”
Sometimes it’s easy to tell what season you’re in, and others it’s harder. I love how I can look back at our updates here and remember where we were at each point, and how they began to shift as God brought us into a new season. As I look back at the posts over the past couple of months, it’s pretty easy to see what season we are in. I think of it as the season where we learn the trust and rely on Him.
It has not been a comfortable lesson, though. It seems like all of the “super human” facade that I carry around at times has been torn away, and all I’m left with is the ‘real’ me… the way He sees me.
I’ve known God for most of my life, and followed Him for a good portion of that. Yet this is the only time that I can truly say that I’ve walked blindly forward in faith, reliant upon His unfailing faithfulness. In perspective, I am shocked at just how SAFE the rest of my life up until this point has been. Part of me wants to go back to that. Go back to the known, where I can rely on myself more, and I don’t seem to need Him as much…
When the Peter set out to walk on water, he began to falter when he took his eyes off of Him. The enemy wants us to be terrified at the monstrous waves, and the churning water – at the dangers, fears, anxieties, and distractions of this life. And let me tell you, they have gotten much larger now that we’ve stepped out of the boat…
Yet each time we almost falter, at every point when the outlook seems grim, …He has sustained us… and what I’m beginning to really understand, in that place deeper than knowledge, is that I really am safe here.And it makes all of the difference.
The right word at the right time, over and over and over again and again. We begin to see His hand, and as the fear subsides, it’s easier to maintain the focus and trust in Him.
With the fear ebbing away, all that’s left is awe and love for Him, along with passion and excitement for this new and dangerous path that He has us on.